Nothing with a side of nothing thank you!

I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING! Geeeez! These days are going so slow! I can't get up and do something active because of the appendectomy, I've seen all my DVDs, I'm writing this blog out of pure boredom and my friend who I was supposed to watch DVDs with ditched me! So here I am, listening to songs I've heard over and over again, writing crap that no one will read ha ha! In the good ol' days I'd resort to taking a few pain killers and washing it down with a few tumblers of Malibu but annoying little voice in the back of my head says 'Nah you're better than that' so I'm not even tempted! I' not really feeling all that bored I'm just pissed that I've done everything I could possibly do other than write this blog. I got an idea! I might sign up for another social networking site! Not that I'll ever use it again bu it might give me something to learn about for a few minutes. Either that or I could Wiki my birthday and end up researching Stockholm syndrome like last time! Mannnnn I'm really dribbling shit here. I MISS SCHOOL! I CAN'T WAIT ANOTHER WEEK! Oh! I have something to say! I just remembered, I've lost 4 kilo. My stomach shrunk while I was in hospital so I've tried not eating too much or drinking too much at one time. I'd say I've only lost weight because I was unwell and now it's just fluid but I'm trying to get into a routine. 107 kilo is not right for a 17 y o girl no matter how big boned I am. Anyhoo I'm going to go back to twiddling my thumbs now. Have a good one! Catch ya on the flip side!

Another ramble... here goes!

Okie dokie then! I mentioned in my last super-interesting blog (or not so much) that I'm looking to make things more interesting. I guess really to gain readers but to at least make my page readable!

NEXT! I was looking at 21 yo female blogger from Britain and she had mentioned the Australian Bush fires. Mum and I have often commented on how they are headlines all over the world. This woman from Britain said something small but stuck in my mind "My thoughts go out to those affected by this tragedy (translated from news-speak: Australians, I am so sorry. For reals)." She's a young woman, therefore when she says "I am so sorry. For reals" that's when I get how she feels. I was talking to my Mum and mentioned how the news doesn't really make anyone feel anything. I mean we might feel a little more informed but when we're told something like for example "6 dead in a suicide bomb in Pakistan" or something similar most of us don't even flinch. Once I started to notice that I do it, I felt guilty! Now I've often heard that we are desensitized to all these things going on because we hear it so often. I think that's only one part of it. I'm open to the possibility that the way news is delivered is so... monologue that the effect on us is wasted away. All this corporate ramble doesn't do anything for me. They talk about the hope of thousands like they were reading you the instructions to a new dryer. I've been told that their job is to report the news and that they are not supposed to have opinions or lead the public in certain directions. Last time I checked 181 people have died, DIED! In the Australian bush fires! In some cases whole families are burnt alive, now do you feel it? I'm pretty sure that the whole of Australia stands in the same place on that.

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These are just a few random things I've been working on recently. The first is just a quick pen sketch in my journal of Jessica Rabbit... simply coz I think she's awesome. The second, the fist with Sacrificial Heartbeat is the band I'm kind of in (our lead picked the name, not me). I found the image of the fist on Deviant Art, so that's not original but i put it in paint, upped the contrast and put the heading on. The other picture is the one I suggested needed a parental lock on it or something, however I did want to show this one because I'm quite proud of it. This is my anatomically correct-nude male drawing. I have two but it doesn't want to load and I haven't got the patience right at this moment too fiddle around with it. I hope anyone that looks at this isn't offended, that's really not my intention. Really I just want to show off, so I hope I've impressed you. I'll find some much better stuff for future... I hope. See you soon!

So here I am again!

I've been meaning to come back here and write some more stuff down but I just didn't get to it... not that anyone reads my blog anyway, I just felt obliged. Anyway so Friday I had an appendectomy. The operation to get my appendix removed was nowhere near as painful as it was when I first was awoken by a severe pain in my gut at 4 in the morning.

So tonight (tonight being 12th of February and 6 days since the operation) I'm feeling much better but I'm having a few issues. The uncomfortable feeling and awkwardness of moving around I was expecting but the issue I didn't give much consideration to was the cuts left behind. Sometimes I'll move a certain way and I can feel my cuts. It hits me that I've been cut into, like something foreign had been in me and now body will never be the same. It feels so useless and maybe there's another reason behind it but I find myself crying over it. It is so god damn frustrating because it's so petty! It's the first time I've been body conscious (and I'm a big girl).
Today I had to change the dressing on one of my cuts, it's on my belly button, mum took my hand away to have a look and I freaked out, in the end I let her look at it but I really didn't like it. There's a slight fold in the cut and i keep panicking that it won't heal right. I'm not a superficial person at all, never have been but I find myself hating these three little cuts on my stomach.

Anyway, moving on... I just started yr 12, my final year of high school. I'm really enjoying it and actually missing it now that I have to be home for 2 weeks. I love the freedom, the work is harder but there's much more time to do it in during school hours. I have never been one for homework so that's good for me.

I'm considering what I should do with this blog. I want to do something more interesting for other people... and myself. I want it to be about me and what I've experienced but I want something that other people will want to look at. I'll get back to you with some ideas! Buhbye!

Gosh this one's gonna have a bit of everything...

OK so I should probably explain some of these pictures lol.
I stole most of these from my friends myspace's. The one of the 2 little girls is a picture of me and my cousin Kirsten who is still one of my best friends. She's incredibly smart, honest and loyal. Also one of the easiest chicks to serve it to hehe. Not that I'd ever do that to the closest thing I have to a big sister!

The picture with all the nutters, pretty easy to spot lol is my best mate Terence and his sisters. I stole this one from him, it pretty much explains his personality. As much as he looks really immature and a lot of fun (which he is) he's very social smart and although happy all the time isn't ignorant of what's going on around him. Which is great!

Then picture of 4 people. That's me, Liezl, Bec and Terence just mucking around heaps. They're some of my closest frieds which reminds me I need to put a pic of me and BB up there...

Then me and Cheezel (Liezl) with me putting bunny ears up on her head.

Now a pic of me and BB... oh ok they popped up on the top. They're pictures of me BB (Barbara) and Terence and then there's one where me and Liezl are mocking Terri coz he never smiles for the camera!... which reminds me Teri'll be here soon so I should get up and get dressed!

I gotta get the pics of the BD book release from BB.

Catch ya on da flipside!

YOUTH ALIVE CONCERT ADELAIDE 2008!!!!

On a fine bright day myself and 50 odd other church goers from Mt Barker set off on an hour bus trip to Adelaide for the Youth Alive Concert at Paradise church. It was one of the most amazing nights of my life! Matt Corby performed though sadly he didn't look like he was enjoying himself all that much. When he sang bitter sweet symphony it was amazing. We then had an incredible motivational speaker from the US who was brilliant and surprisingly so motivational that I got up and went to the back to give my life to Jesus. It was inevitable, it would have happened sooner or later. Any then there was the best part... STELLAR KART! They're a great Christian Pop 'n' Roll band from Arizona. I'd never heard of them before in my life. Last night was beyond incredible! It's not just their music. I could watch them for hours on mute! They were so incredibly entertaining, not to mention... well see for yourself...

My friend Kodee got one of their autographs and gave it to me. I will love her forever! She told me it was the lead guitarist but I'm not exactly sure...

Anyway so as I've said it was a great night.

Catch ya on the flipside!

Breaking Dawn Book Release!

I thought I'd like to write down that I went to The Breaking Dawn book release. It was a great day. I hung out with 2 of my best friends Barbara and her current boyfriend Matt. We went to lunch at the organic cafe (they have wicked brownies) and stayed there for quite a while then went op shopping along Gawler Street (the main street in Mt Barker). Ummm then we went and had a late lunch at Millie's Bakery, I love their custard tarts! When we finally went and bought our books it was just starting to get busy as the release gathering was just starting. It was just party food and fizzy drinks lol with a quiz and a raffle etc. It was packed with teen aged girls lol no surprise there. Everything was moving pretty slowly at first, people had come with small groups of friends and they all looked a little anxious, so I started people talking (sometimes I can be a real loud mouth lol) I asked people who they preferred out of the guys. I almost got shot when I said Jacob was better than Edward though it started people talking, everything kinda chilled out after that. We were all wondering who was going to read the first chapter. Barbara, Matt and me were sitting down chatting and having something to eat (again lol) and then the shop assistant approached me and asked me if I'd like to do the official reading of the first chapter. At first I didn't know what to say but I said I'd love to. I asked her 'why me? Is it because I'm a loud mouth?' she laughed and nodded. It's always nice to be noticed. Anyway so I gave a little speech and began to read what I think is the longest chapter ever written lol. Afterwards we were all hanging around for a while, there were posters but not enough for everyone. Though once I finished reading the chapter they gave me one. So now I have big movie poster on my wall with Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. OMG I'd love one with Jacob even though I haven't seen him all grown up yet :(

Right at this moment I'm sitting in a classroom typing this. I'm not actually connected to the net but I'll publish it when I get home which will be in about an hour... YAY!

Laterz!